HeartBroken?

I do not know… It is so hard to give up on someone who is perfect for you, that you feel all of his defects match perfect with yourself… The thing is I am actually able to forgive every little thing you have ever done to me. Everything. Even the nights I fall asleep crying for hours…
I am sure that is not love at all, so many people call it “obsession”, but I am pretty sure that if I ever find someone who brings flowers everyday, surprises me every weekend with a dinner, or even buy something small just to make me smile, it will not definitely be the same. I will never fall so hard in love with a real gentleman like the way I fell for you. That is for sure.
What is it? How does it work? Why do we fall in love with someone who hurts us more than he should? Everybody will call you “stupid” for that, but is not that at all, at least not to the person who is feeling it. However it is exhausting to trying always to make him happy forts than you, and he just can not realize that. He knows you are suffering for him, but he just feels great about it… WTF.

I just had to get rid of it. I am sorry for being so depressive. Bye.